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I’m happy with the people I have in my life and I have no regrets. A lot of people are fake and untrustworthy and I’m glad to say I’ve found really good friends that aren’t and an amazing boyfriend. Tiffany, Rachel, and Deondrayy, thanks for always being there when I needed you.

*Not doing todays letter cause I’m lazy. But it would go to Margherita. Maybe I’ll do it tomorrow in italian aha(;

This letter would probably have to go to Rachel too because she is the most important person that lives in Michigan. But yeah, I already wrote her a letter so just read that one. Ahah I’m lazyyyy.

Arianna, you are the best example I have for this letter. I’ve known you since literally before I can remember. You’ve always been such a nice great person and I do miss you. We’ve both changed so much in such opposite ways, and if you really think about it, if I would have never moved, if none of the things that happened did, I think we would probably still be best friends now. We lived in the same neighborhood and hung out all the time. But when my life changed then it changed forever and there’s no going back from that. I wish we could still get along like we used to though. I mean everyone changes and I’ve made it work with most of my friends but for some reason me and you just don’t like the same things. We live in completely different worlds. I do miss you though. Maybe one day we’ll hang out again, but neither of us really seem to have much interest in eachother anymore. Even though we miss eachother, we’re just not really right for eachother because we get on eachothers nerves. Well you get on mine haha(: Well Anna I hope I see you soon. If I don’t, I just want you to know that you are truely a really great person and I’ll miss having you in my life. Love Sierra.

This letters to my dad. I know I would probably like having you in my life and you are a good person but I just don’t want you right now. I don’t really know how I feel about you or our relationship to be honest. I don’t feel like you care enough and I don’t think you ever really will. Plus if you left me before when I was just an innocent little baby you could so easily leave me now. I’m mean and I have an attitude and in your opinion I’m probably “spoiled”. But you don’t know ANYTHING about my life. You can’t even get my freaking birthday right. You weren’t there when I needed you and its too late now, even though it would be nice, I don’t think we’ll ever have a true relationship. And I’m okay with that, just sometimes I feel bad for my sister. She never even had a chance and I love her and miss her to death.

— I fucked up on the days so I’m just gonna stop numbering them aha(;

Hey Marcus Anthony Wells, FUCK YOU.
Honestly I don’t even think you deserve a letter. I try to ignore your existance and let you affect me as little as possible now a days. I’m glad you’re in jail, I’m glad you’re gonna spend the rest 10+ years of your life in prison. I hope you never know your kids and they grow up living a better life without you. I hope my mom let’s you go and moves on. I hope you realize what a horrible person you are. I hate you with such a strong passion and I would give up anything to have you out of my family’s life for good. You are the biggest most heartless selfish person I have ever ever ever met. You are a horrible “husband” and a horrible “father.” I can admit that you have improved some, but I still stay up at night to make sure my moms okay and I have nightmares about you. You’ve ruined my life so completely and especially my moms, I don’t think she’ll ever be able to be happy again thanks to you. You took advantage of her and fucked her over so many times and hit her and cheated and did everything you could just to hurt her just because you can and thought it was funny and you could get away with it. I wish I would have been smarter than and known better and just called the police, I don’t know why I was so scared. I wish I could take it all back, I wish I could change my moms mind and make her let you go. I wish this could just all be over and done with and we could all just move on with our lives like you never existed. And I hate you so much for not only messing up the past but the future too. I hate myself for letting you and your actions affect me. I hate my mom for not listening. I hate her for taking you back. I hate her for making excuses for you. I hate her for acting like you never put your hands on me. I hate everything about you and everything you’ve ever done. My mom is such a great person and you took advantage of that. I hate you more than I can put in words. I hope I never ever see your face again. But unfortuanately, I’m pretty sure I will. I wish I wasn’t. I hate you for getting away with it all and saying “haha” when you ran away from the police after you left me giovani and my mom bleeding. I hate you SO much. I hate you for the fact that I just put this all on tumblr. I hope no one reads this because I don’t want anyone to know my weaknesses or that I’m afraid and upset and I have all this inside because I don’t feel comfortable talking about this. I HATE YOU. I just want you gone okay?

Dear Aunt Natalie,
I miss you, a lot. For some reason you were someone I always looked up to, even though you’ve made so many mistakes in your life. You’ve always been more of a friend than an aunt to me, you’re kind of like my older sister in a lot of ways, well you were. I always went to you for advice on little stuff and about my mom and everything and I felt like I could tell you stuff without worrying about you telling her and you were always there when I needed you. I miss that. Since I moved though a lot of your life has changed and I’m really dissapointed in the decisions you’re making. You critiscized my mom for staying with Marcus because he hit her every chance you got, but now you put not only yourself but your DAUGHTER in the same situation and Jenny doesn’t deserve any of that and neither do you. And not only that but before Odel and the abuse you slept around and got pregnant 3 times and ended every one with an abortion and that’s not right either. I wish I could tell you this all and have it change your mind but I know it won’t, you’ll probably just get mad that I know. I love you Natalie but you need to get your life together. -Sierrra.

*Didn’t do day nine cause I couldn’t think of anyone

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Wow a lot of people on tumblr are dumb how are you gonna become friends with someone through the computer? To everyone who CAN write this letter;You’re dumb and I hope you get raped. (:

Hey. We never really dated and you never knew how much I cared about you. I don’t know why I did, but I did. I met you in the 4th grade, I met you when my world was all crashing down. I was raised in such a closed off life with a house and 3 cars and never worried about anything, and one day I watched everything change. I saw my mom and “dad” fighting and threatening eachother with crowbars and everything and anything else. I watched my “dad” move back to Grand Rapids and then I found out he was never really my dad at all. I met my moms new abusive pothead boyfriend, I lost my house and watched my favorite cat and the thing I had the most attatchment to be killed by a pitbul 2 feet away from me. Everything was going wrong and when I was with you you knew how to take my mind off everything and make me feel okay. You made all the difference in the world in who I am today and you’ll probably never even know it. I was living with my aunt and you taught me everything. You were my first “kiss” and even though it was during truth or dare and it was a peck and it was behind a dumpster, it changed me and I’ll never forget it.
Eventually I moved out into the ghettoest apartments in michigan and I still visited my aunt and came and saw you. I started coming less and less and then one day I showed up at your door and asked for you, but you weren’t there, you moved and you were gone forever. I remember that day so perfectly for some reason, I had a mudd backpack on and it was light purple and I was wearing capri’s. I remember I was so pissed off, and upset that you moved without telling me. But I remember I still went back to school and I told everyone about you. I liked you so much and I was so young I probably didn’t even know what I was talking about. I never forgot about you. 2 years passed and in sixth grade I moved to Arbor Meadows, somehow I ran into my old bestfriend (Rachel) and we automatically reconnected. And then not even a week later I found out you lived there too. I remember that day too. You were at the park with Melanie and I saw you and my jaw literally dropped and I was so happy and all you said was “yeah I know you so what?” And it broke my heart. I talked to Rachel about you for hours and hours and probably bored her to death, I still remember a lot of the stories and memories we had together even though you don’t. I remember wanting soooo bad to go to your house and tell you my problems and about Marcus and have you be there for me, but I never could. After all these years I still remember it all, and even though I would like to say otherwise, I still feel an attatchment to you. I find myself on your facebook more than I should, I don’t think about you how I used to but I miss you. You wanna know something? You were the reason I started smoking weed, because I wanted to smoke with you. And I did, but it didn’t change your view of me, and you still went on living your life like I never existed. You’ll never know how I felt about you and that kind of makes me sad. I always felt like, like me and Rachel, me and you were meant to be together. -Sierra

“If I ever write a story about my life, don’t be surprised when your name shows up a million times” -You

Hi. I don’t know who you are, but I just want you to know I don’t need you in my life, so if you ever want to be you need to make the effort. In my opinion, I have everyone that I need. Otherwise, I’ll probably forget about you in a year or even less.

“One word love; curiosity. You long for freedom, you long to do what you want to do because you want it. To act on selfish impulse. You want to see what it’s like. One day, you won’t be able to resist.”
-Captain Jack Sparrow

I have a lot of things I want to do in my life, I want to experience it and live it to the fullest. I’m not completely impulsive though, I’m smart and I keep my grades up, I’m gonna go to college and get a career whatever it may be. But before I have kids and a family and responsibilities I want to do everything that I’ve ever wanted to do, I want to travel everywhere, learn how to ride a motorcycle, get piercings and tattoos I want to do it all. And that is exactly what I intend to do.

I have 3 brothers and sister, but these are the most important to me;

Dear Gabriel, I miss you. I’m sorry that you aren’t really a part of my family and I wish I could change that because I would love to have you in my life. Even though we don’t talk that much, I want you to know that I love you and I’ll always be here if you need me. Love, Sierra.

Dear Adrianna, I’m really sorry. I’m sorry I don’t like your family that much, and I’m sorry I’m not around and I’m sorry I said I would be. I only met you two years ago and I haven’t really seen you since, so I don’t know everything about you, I couldn’t tell you your birthday or if I’m spelling your name right, and I wish I could, I wish I could have been there when you were a baby and watched you grow up ever since. But now I have no one to blame but myself for our relationship and I’m sorry for that. You’re a really great little sister and I’m sorry if I’ve dissapointed you as a big one. You’re a great kid and even though sometimes you can be annoying I know you just want me around. Hopefully one day I will be in your life as much as you want me to be. I do love you and I hope one day I can be there for you as a big sister and be a good influence on you. Love, Sierra.